When I first thought about starting this blog, I told a few people and their responses were mixed. Some were very encouraging, and others warned against it. Those that warned against it said I shouldn’t tell people “my business.” I remember one specific person saying, “You can’t tell everyone your truth. People don’t want to know the truth, and you shouldn’t tell people your business.” Right then, I knew I had to do it.
As a child, I was programmed to keep everything inside. My mom would tell me, “..don’t go to school and tell what goes on in this house.” Hell, I couldn’t tell anyone anything. She constantly reminded me not to tell “our business.” Her favorite line was, “What goes on inside this house, stays in this house.” The problem was that we never talked about all the shit that went on in the house! That constant messaging created a highly dysfunctional pattern in me. I would bottle all of my feelings up and suppress them. Because I couldn’t talk about anything, I didn’t feel as if my feelings mattered. Eventually, I disconnected from the parts of myself that give me permission to show up in my own light.
As you can see, I decided to start the blog. I’ve worked very hard on healing myself and my multi-layered, highly dysfunctional patterns. I’m still a work in progress, but I know through honesty and sharing stories there is so much healing available. Most people don’t share their story because of fear…fear of being judged, criticized, or guilted. I’ve learned that we all have something, and by sharing our truths, we not only have the ability to heal ourselves, but someone else might find relief too. My truth is my offering, and I hope it inspires you to live yours.